My heart wrenches

My heart wrenches With the thought of losing you. A slight distance thought Passes through— That you will leave me someday, And all that glittery gold Is just a dust, That smoulders with my tears, And with the wind It all perishes away.

One day You will just be a distant memory, Every time we spent together Just a story That I will keep repeating Again and again, But just in my head, My dreams, And my thoughts only.

For one day You will leave me adrift On my own glory, And I know The exact amount of pain I will go through that day— Just a hundred Or thousand times more The pain I’ve gone through.

For you live In my days, My nights, And the in-betweens, But that day I’ll have you lost By all the means.

I shake As I see the day In clear sight sometimes— On days you hate me, On times When none shines.

When no matter How much I love you, Your heart Will not approve, Blocks all my feelings Just to disapprove. I see immense hatred, I see immense guilt, For having me In your life With nothing But regret.

And that’s when I sense my worth in you, And my heart Always wrenches With the thought Of losing you.