My Heart Wrenches

My heart wrenches

With the thought of losing you.

A slight distance thought

Passes through—

That you will leave me someday,

And all that glittery gold

Is just a dust,

That smoulders with my tears,

And with the wind

It all perishes away.

One day

You will just be a distant memory,

Every time we spent together

Just a story

That I will keep repeating

Again and again,

But just in my head,

My dreams,

And my thoughts only.

For one day

You will leave me adrift

On my own glory,

And I know

The exact amount of pain

I will go through that day—

Just a hundred

Or thousand times more

The pain

I’ve gone through.

For you live

In my days,

My nights,

And the in-betweens,

But that day

I’ll have you lost

By all the means.

I shake

As I see the day

In clear sight sometimes—

On days you hate me,

On times

When none shines.

When no matter

How much I love you,

Your heart

Will not approve,

Blocks all my feelings

Just to disapprove.

I see immense hatred,

I see immense guilt,

For having me

In your life

With nothing

But regret.

And that’s when

I sense my worth in you,

And my heart

Always wrenches

With the thought

Of losing you.